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2006-03-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

2005-10-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

Here I am crying.. I am sick of trying.. I am lovin and carin.. Wishin and hopin That I can make it through.. I fell in love with you.. And now you are gone.. I cry at night, I cry in bed "I love you" You once said.. Why do I still dream of you? Why do I still wish you were here? Why do I still love seeing you? Why do I wish you were near? I dunno what's happening!!! I dunno what to do... But I know one thing for sure.. I am infatuated by you! I wish you could let me know.. What you are feeling inside.. You dun hove to be afraid.. Your feelings, you dun have to hide.. At least I had the guts to say how I feel about you.. I wished that you felt the same.. That you cared for me too!

Wrote tis entry for sum one whom is impt to me.. but think she wun noe it... haiz.. nvm ba..

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2005-09-05T22:25:00.000+08:00

*^SAD^*

"As I sat here I was trying to think of all the times you hurt me and made me cry. . . Hoping and wishing it would make me like you less. But it didn't. Because all the times I could remember were the ones when you showed me that you cared. . . I didn't want to believe that you ever did You walk by me everyday and say hello. Everyday you take time out to listen to me. You talk to me, smile at me, laugh with me, and have fun with me. Well, I talk, smile and laugh too, but inside I'm hurting. Deep down it hurts to be with you because I love you and you are only a friend."

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2005-09-01T21:46:00.000+08:00

^^^^FALL^^^^
Ytd wasnt a gd day for me... Had a fall and knocked my injured ankle while I was hopping to my bed.. *OUCH* It hurts!!!!!!! Haiz.. Hope my ankle wun get worse... I wanna recover fast!!!! Hate using the crutches!!!!! It's so boring staying at home alone the whole day!!!!!!!!! Haiz... I MUST GET WELL SOON~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

****Missing****
Been 2 weeks n 1 day since I saw her le.. =( Haiz.. Miss her so much!!!!!! The feeling of missing sumone is soooo tong ku!!!!!!!!!!!! Wonder how is she now... She has been feeling unwell for the past few days... Hope you are getting better now... Nise, pls take gd care of urself for now ok... I noe projects n sch works is stressing u up but u have to take a rest... If tis carries on, u will fall sick de!!!!!!!!!! Haiz... I'm not worried abt my ankle but u... Dun wanna anything happen to u... So pls.. Take care ok, dar? It hurts me more when I see u suffering alone den the pain my ankle is giving me.. Do take care k....

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2005-08-28T15:07:00.000+08:00

-=Tears=-
You take the tears I cried and lift me up to the bluer skies Yes, you gave me hope and meaning to my life, I love you so You never asked me why, just smiled and took all the tears I criedBaby, now I know what love is and what I am living for...

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2005-08-26T21:26:00.000+08:00

******Feelings*******
Is it true tt when one is down, he wun even care abt himself??? Even if he's injured or hurt?? Will he think tt he is useless??? How does it feels when one sees his or her loved one suffering n yet they cant do anything to help??? When one tries veri veri hard to make his/her loved ones feel better but they didnt notice, will he/she feels sad? hurt? disappointed? Have u guys ever take things for granted thinking tt they will always be there?? These r all the things I have been thinking.. Haiz.. I dunno.... It's been sum time le... I realli miss her alot!!!!! Wanted to see her so much.... But i cant!!!!!! Everytime when i tried to stand up, my wound hurts like hell.. Wanted so much to tell her how much I miss her... How much i wanna see her... Haiz... it's ok ba.... She's been busy with all her sch works n projs...... Shouldnt disturb her too much...
Nise... I jus wanna say I miss u veri much!!!!!! veri veri much!!!!!!!!! Noe tt u have been veri stress lately... Sry tt I....... U should noe wat ba... Promise u tt I will take care of myself... Dun worry ok... Pls take care of urself too k.. Love u lots!!!!!

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2005-08-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

******ACCIDENT******
19th Aug was a bad day for me... Went back to secondary to have my vball training but in the end, even b4 I started playing, I fractured my leg.. Haiz... U guys wun wanna noe how hurt it is... Cuz it hurts alot alot!!!!!!!!!!!! Went to TTSH in the evening to have it x-ray n to my horror, doc told me tt I have to go for operation!!!!!! Felt kinda scared... But no one was with me at tt time... Haiz.. Wished tt she was there with me at tt time... Stayed overnight in the hospital... Couldnt slp all nitez.... Was nervous n scared... Wanted to gif her a call but tot for awhile.. She had her trainin till so late, guess she will be tired... So didnt call her in the end... Had my operation the next day... Hope after my operation, the 1st person I see when I open my eyes is her.... But.................... She didnt come.... Told myself it's ok cuz my frens were there! Carol, Sperm, Yan Rui, Joel n u guys noe hu u r.. *lazy to type out* hee... Thx guys! For visiting me when it's already so late le.. Thx alot!!!!!

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2005-08-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

BACK~~!!!!!!
Hey I'm back to update my blog le~~!!!!!!! Realise it's been a freakin long time since I update le.. Haha.. Got miss me ma?? Lolz... Sry wor.. Been busy with sch works, proj n a veri important stuff!!! Hee.. Not gonna tell u guys wat... Wait till when I succeed den will announce it out.. Haha.. But I dun even noe will it succeed anot.. Haiz... Realli hope it will!!!! Exams r jus round the corner, with still so many projects on hand... Stress man!!!!! Family prob.... *Sigh* I may look fine everytime but sum times, I'm not... No one notice it too... =( Nvm I'm a strong guy.. Wun be taken down so easily.. Hee... Gonna study hard frm now onwards.. Fail 2 paper for my term test.. Cannot fail any more le.. *MUST STUDY HARD*

*****Matches*****
Had friendly match recently... 1st match: Tp against National Gers team.. We lost! So cool...! =x Well it's kinda my fault.. Dun even have 1st ball on tt day.. Let alone defence.. Dunno wat happen to me oso... Halfway during the game, I hurt my shoulder.. Wah!! Make it even worse... *Sadded* Prone to injuries... Wahahah... 2nd match: Tp against Square Kakhis... One of the youth cup team... Well we won tt.. Not bad huh! Haha.. Form on tt day?? Hmmm quite gd! Haha.. Managed to save a few spiking... Love it man! Lolz! But sad.. Sum one is not there on tt day..

-=Personal=-
To sum one close: Nise, I noe u have been veri busy n stress lately over ur proj, personal stuff n all.. But pls dun overtired urself okie.. It hurts me when I see u suffering.. Dun think abt those unhappy things le... U still got me, ur 3 bros, ur sister(shimin)... Even if they cant be there for ya.. I'll be still around.. I promised u tt I will be there for u whenever u have prob n I will do it... Dun keep everything to urself okie.. Share all ur probs with me.. I wanna be there for u.. Shower u with the care n love u need... Lastly.... I wanna say My heart has only space for u n no one else.. =) Love u lots!

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2005-07-15T11:38:00.000+08:00

Skies are dark It's time for rain Final call, you board the train Heading for tomorrow I wave goodbye to yesterday Wipe the tears you hide your face Blinded by the sorrow How can I be smiling like before When baby you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so Tell me you're not leaving Say you've changed your mind now That I am only dreaming That this is not goodbye This is starting over If you wanna know I don't wanna let go So say it isn't so

Tempt to find but at least we've tried We're still alive with hopes this time As they closed the door behind you We're so alone and time stands still Shake the ground beneath the wheels as I wish I'd never found you Wohoh How can I be smiling when you go Will I be strong enough to carry on

Say it isn't so Tell me you're not leaving Say you've changed your mind now That I am only dreaming That this is not goodbye This is starting over If you wanna know I don't wanna let go So say it isn't so

Miles, miles to go Before I can sail Before I can nail my love for you to sleep Oh darling I get miles, miles to go Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again

Say it isn't so Tell me you're not leaving Say you've changed your mind now That I am only dreaming That this is not goodbye This is starting over If you wanna know I don't wanna let go So say it isn't so

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2005-07-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

Haiz.... Time passes so fast... Tml, 15th of July, will be me n her 1 yr of anniversary provided we r still together... But cuz of sum prob, we............. *sad* Haiz... Still feel sad n hurt even till now... Wanted so much for us to be back together but will this day ever come? I dunno... Been tryin veri hard for the past few mths to make her feel touched, make her realise tt I still love, care n teng her alot... Will she ever come to realise it?? Haiz.. I realli hope she will.... Realli wish tt she can gif me a chance to take care of her for the rest of her life... I only wan to showered my love n care to her n no one else.... I Hate myself!!!!! Y didnt i treasure her when we r together!!!! She's such a nice n swt ger n yet I......... Haiz.... Y!!!!!!!!!!!!! REALLI HATE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nise... I hope by now u shld noe my feelings for ya... Been mths le... I hope i have prove it to u.. Though sum times I feel hurt n sad, I still carry on with it.. Cuz I still believe tt u still have sum feelings for me... Gif me the chance to love n take care of u for the rest of ur life.. Will u?? I realli LOVE YOU ALOT!!!!!! I wanna spend the rest of my life with u... Gif me a chance ok???

*Happy 1st Anniversary to You!*

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2005-07-12T23:07:00.000+08:00

Finally tests are over!!!! Cool~~!!! Think gonna fail sum paper again.. Haiz.. But nvm ba.. Used to it le.. Lolz!! Went to sentosa with Shi Rong they all last Sat... Haha.. We were supposed to meet 1030 at Habour Front.. But instead Shi Rong meet me at Cp at 1030.. -_- late for half an hr.. Wahah.. We went to sunset bay.. N guess hu i saw!? My juniors, seniors, TP teammates n outside frens.. Siao siao.. Sunset bay is like my house... =x Anw me n my juniors went to challenge other pple for vball match.. Hmmm we won 2-0! Cool rite? No fight!!!! Wahaha.. Jkjk...

Been feeling happy for the past few days.. Hee.. Get to spend sum time with her... Yupz.. Pei her to my aunt's salon shop last Sunday to get her hair cut n dyed... But she doesnt like the new hairstyle.. Cuz it's like japanese hairstyle.. But it's nice lorz.. Hee.. N her new hair colour is nice too~~!!!!! After tt, pei her go walk around den pei her to her tuition place... Waited 2hrs in the cold weather for her.. =x Had a plate of duck rice n 2 piece special meal while waiting for her.. *hungry la* Lolz... Super evil lorz she.. Keep hittin my shoulder.. Cuz i have sunburnt!!!!! eeee!!!! Nise~~~!!!!!!! I make sure u gonna regret for hitting my sunburnt area.. Haha.. =x Anw Nise.. Thx!!! Felt veri happy when being with u... =) *muackz* Love U!!!!!

After much discussion... Kianz n me finally went back to xms again n have friendly match with our juniors 2day... During warm up tt time, oso dunno wat happen to me.. cant jump! -_- Guess I must have eaten too much le.. Lolz.. Den suddenly half way thru the training, stmoach felt veri funny.. As in kinda pain.. But carry on with my match.. Haha.. Feel better now le.. But back ache.. Pengz! Sianz diao... Oh ya! We lost 3-0 to our juniors!!!! Wahaha... *ashamed* Old le?? Think so!.... Haha... My excuses....

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2005-07-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

Read her blog again... Haiz.. Wat has happen to her?? Almost every of her entries are saddening.. Ask her, but she say nth happen... Haiz.. Nise.... Dun hide anything away frm me ok? I noe ur character... Whenever u r down.. I'll noe de... Whenever smth happen to u, my eyelid will jump... So pls.... Tell me whenever u have prob ok? I have told u b4.. As long as I'm around... I wun let u suffer alone.. I will be there for u always... *PROMISE*

I'had been trying hard to get out of my dark and tear,I had been trying hard for yrs..I put in my heart every time...Dun expect anything but just smile from everyone,But they had given me lots of things tat was not smile but betray and hurt..It's not pain but tat's serious enough to cause me die...My heart is up and grown for them,But is was also being broken into pieces by them.I had learnt to grow stronger, to defence against all those attack...But..Lucky...I finally found you,Whereby i can had my love and heart for u again...I may not be the perfect one,But i will try to be,I may not be a gentleman in life,But i will alway gentle toward you,I may not be a consider one,But i will consider all things for you first before I think for me,People may think this is SILLY,But i had know it clear enough tat,This is NOT SILLY,But,I LOVE YOU!
For u---> Nise...

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2005-07-03T18:14:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. Felt so sad n hurt when i read her blog tis afternoon.. If I treasure her more, mayb all these wun happen to her.. Tried to cheer her up but I failed... Is there realli nth I can do to cheer her up? Am I tt useless?? Haiz... Scolded her for being too silly... (not throwin my temper) Does tis hurt her feeling?? (SRY NISE!!!) Wanted to make her smile.. Wanted to make her feel better.. But how~~~!!!!!?? Tot of gg down to pei her.. Pei her tok... Listen to her prob.. Be there for her.. Let her vent her anger on me.. Doesnt matter at all as long she feels better... She's suffering in silence.. N yet I couldnt cheer her up.. Couldnt lift the burden up for her... Realli dunno wat to do to make her feel better... How I wish all these happen to me only n not to her... God.... She's a fragile ger... Dun let her suffer so much... It hurts me!!!! (Tears drop down) Though she always say "Denise is STRONG" tis is not true for the most of the time~!!!! Wat can i do!!!??? Sumone pls tell me wat to do... Gif me sum ideas so tt I can cheer her up, make her feel better.. I realli dun wish to see her suffer in silence... I wan to be there for her... Haiz... It hurts me when I see her like tt.. Has she gone back to her usual self whr she would keep everything to herself??? I have tis feeling... Force her to promise me tt she will call me whenever she has prob but will tis help?? I realli dunno.. Am i doin the rite thing? Force her? Haiz.. Felt sad.... How I wish I could turn back the time............ Could only blame myself.. Nise... No matter wat happen, I will always be there for u! I'm willing to do anything for u as long as u r happy... I promise u!!!! Even if the whole world blames u, I will stand on ur side n support u... N if ever there's a chance for me, I would kiss u on ur forehead n say "Will u gif me a chance to be ur guardian angel n take care of u for the rest of ur life.. I love u!"

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2005-06-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

Wth man~~!!!!! 2day wasnt a gd day for me!!!!! Argh~~!!!!!! Super pek chek lorz.. Isnt leader suppose to show gd example rite!? And because of her, I didnt learn anything for MCT 2day.... Wtf! everyone was given a problem n were ask to do the problem last week.. And this week we suppose to teach each other... But she didnt even do it~!!!!!!! Term test is comin soon n yet....... ARGH!!!!!! Secondly, I had to do everything for her... KNS! Come on lorz... As if i'm so free like tt! Have to help u collect all the proj things... Cant u do it urself!!!??? I'm not born for u guys to be ordered ard!!!!!!!! FU*K la!! PEK CHEK!!!!!!!
Haiz.... She told me tt she was sort of hurt n sad.. Tried to console her, wanted to skip my trainin to pei her.. But she doesnt wan.. Was worried abt her thru out my trainin even though trainin was veri tough 2day plus my knee injury... *Thinking of how to cheer her up now* Shall see how tml ba... Nise, dun worry ok.. I'm not gonna let anyone take u for granted again.. I swear!!!!!!!! As long as I'm around, I will protect u frm any harm... Believe me!! Hope you are alright now... Cheer up!!!

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2005-06-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

Another boring day for me.... Stay at home the whole jus to finish my cds logbook... Wrote 4 pages of it... SUX MAN~~!!!!! Oso dunno why i chose tt as my cds... So many things to do... ARGH~~!!!!
Went down to CPP jus now to buy my bus concession.. *broke le* Haha.. But I still went to buy sum famous amos for her.. Noe tt she wanted to eat those cookies badly... So bought 300g for her... Kinda cheap ba.. Hee.. Realli miss her alot lorz.... But dun dare to tell her... Haiz!!! Useless me~~~!!!! =( Love Her Lots!!!!!!!!
Hmmm.. Nth much to blog le.. Haha.. Shall blog longer the next time...

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2005-06-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

Wow~~!! Been quite sum time since I update le... So busy with sch works.. Tests and proj... *STRESS ARH!!!!* And I'm still feeling sick.. Haiz.. Cough (blood?) and blocked nose... Now having muscle ache again.. Wah!!!! Can die man... Anw I have smth for me to be happy... =) Went to meet her on last Thurs.. Waited for her to finish giving tuition n pei her walk hm... Cuz I bought smth for her.. Her fav cookies--->Famous Amos!!!!! Haha.. Found out tt she has been giving herself too much stress all tt.. So decided to buy those cookies plus her fav choco to cheer her on.. =) Hurts me when i see her suffer.. Haiz... Told her tt if she is stress or havin sum prob, jus gif me a call and I will be there for her.. Nise~~!!!! Dun gif urself too much stress okie... And dun keep things to urself!!! I will be there for u no matter wat happen.. Silly ger~~!!! *I'm starting all over again to win u back, Nise.. Wanna touched ur heart again.. Wanna make u smile when i do things for u.. Wanna make u be mine again... Wanna take care of u for the rest of ur life... Cuz I still love you!!!* *SHY* Haha..
Super pek chek ytd nitez.. Suddenly one of my group member say he couldnt buy the parts for our proj.. I was like wah now den say.. Den how am i suppose to think of a solution... Haiz... Sux man... I hate PROJECTS!!!!!!

*Wishing tt we can be back together*

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2005-06-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

Oh man~~!!! Wat happen to me lately??!!! Been having headache for days.. Almost every nitez.. Haiz... N now.. I'm havin block nose n cough.. Body is feeling hot!!!! Am I falling sick?? I cant fall sick at tis pt of time!!!! Quizzes n tests r here... Dun wish to skip any of it!!!! Argh!! Haiz.... I'm so stress!!!!!! *problems n problems* Hope things will turn better for me soon.. Haiz... Miss her alot!!!!!!!

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2005-06-19T12:32:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored~~~!!!!!! Cant get used to it to my life now.. Haiz~~ Used to call her every nitez. Miss the times when we were together.. Wish i could tell her how much I miss her... But I cant... For sum reasons... Realli miss her so much!!! Anw, went out to buy sum oilment for her ytd b4 havin dinner with Strong.. I admit i was veri veri worried for her when i knew tt her back was injuried... Yupz... I bought the oilment n put it at her doorstep den walk away.. Cost me quite a sum of money.. BUT! It's worth it! As long as she's ok.. Nth else matter.. =) Am i veri silly?? Is tt why frens call me You Fu?? I already have my own prob le n yet i still can cast aside mine n be there for my frens.. Haha.. But den i like the name~~!!!! =x Hey guys.. i noe i mayb silly but tt's my character.. Hee.. Oh ya~~~!!!! Thx Carol n sum of my frens who are there for me when I'm down... Thx alot! Especially Carol n Weets.. =)
Cool~~!!!! Muscles all aching now... Cant realli move my whole body.. N worse, i hurt my knee again.. Couldnt walk properly.. Haiz.. Argh~~!!!!! Last Fri training was kinda tough... Whole shirt was full water.. *smelly* Realised my skills hasnt been improving but de-proving.. Wah!!! Ivp is in 2 mths time lorz... I wanna get into top 2!!!!! Wanna get my old form n skills back which I'm always proud of!!!!!!! Wish me luck guys....

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2005-06-18T16:17:00.000+08:00

Finally got myself a blog le... oso dunno y i started creating a blog out of the blue.. mayb too many things happened to me.. cant find anyone to share ba.. so tot of creating a blog to say out my feelings n tots?? think so.. haiz.. miss her veri much.. but............. tryin veri hard not to think of her.. but can i?? i realli dunno... cried on the 15th of june (my bdae).. my heart hurts alot!!! it's like millions of sword jus pierced thru it.. *bleed* *shattered*
Found out ytd tt she hurt her back.. am so worried n yet i cant do anything... haiz.. hope she can get well soon~! Gd luck for ur IVP~~!!!

(P.S... last entry words too small so re-publish.. haha..)

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